Oye! It's early

I'm completely convinced that Brighthouse is against me these days. Today is the day I'm going to call them and paint their little red wagon. Why are we paying so much money for a service that is seemingly down for 10 hours per day? It never fails that each time I have a fantastic rant just itching to be blogged, the internet goes down. Therefore I'm now writing the inane crap that is floating to the surface of my tired brain this early in the morning.

It's day 4 on Weight Watchers and I've just finished my yummy FiberOne bar. So delicious. Unfortunately it's only 6:08 am, so that also means I'll be ready for lunch around, oh, 10am. Oh well. Who says lunch has to be at a certain time? When your day is starting at 5am, a 10am lunch doesn't sound so bad.

Today might just end up being the day of phone calls. I absolutely have to call the flooring guy today and see about him coming to give us a quote. I'm not completely sold on the idea of acid stain flooring just yet, but I guess it never hurts to find out. I keep hinting around at how Empire will install next day, but it seems to be falling on deaf ears. I'm still just thankful that our plumbing issues didn't end up being $5,000 as the original plumber had suggested. What a tool. And what kind of fools would we have been to have let him come and rip our house apart without him investigating it?

Last night Braedan had one of his meltdowns. For the second day in a row we had a play date with one of his friends and he was completely over tired by the time 7pm came around. Of course on the day that I need help the most there was a family emergency so I was left to do bedtime by myself. It's always fun to have an infant that is over stimulated and a 4 year old who is, for lack of better term, over stimulated also. Hells bells it was a long hour from 7-8. He finally got to bed around 8:30pm and just when I thought I could relax, young Kaleigh decided it was her turn.

My god, I hope she isn't learning how to be a complete freakshow from Braedan.

I'm waiting with baited breath for her to giggle. Every day I make all the goofy faces I can in the hopes that I'll get that first little giggle. So far I've got squat. Don't get me wrong, I'm not worried, but I guess I'm just very anticipatory right now. That was one of my favorite milestones with Braedan. I'll never forget that day on his changing table when after a rendition of "belly belly belly" he giggled like I was the funniest person on the planet. Kaleigh also seems to like the "belly belly belly" game.

There are so many days that I wonder if we made the right decision by getting my tubes tied. Down deep I know we did, but there are so many things that we'll never experience again. Although most of the time I feel as though I'm a single parent with this baby. It seems as though I'm the only one with an emotional investment right now. Maybe he was that way with Braedan and I just didn't realize because we defined it as 50-50 since we both worked. This time I don't work outside of the house and so I take on all the responsibility day in and day out. This past weekend he slept in until 9:30am. On Sunday we were having a disucssion and I very lightly threw in the idea that it would be nice if I got to sleep in just ONE day of the week until maybe 7. Getting up and starting the day at 5am, while going to bed at 11pm or later each night can really start taking a toll on a person. He acted as though it was some sort of epiphony or something. Could it really have been that hard for him to come up with it on his own? Where is the consideration for me when I think of him almost constantly?

It's now 7am and need to wake Braedan for school. Luckily today is pizza day so I don't need to pack a lunch - yay! Oh, and happy day! I found my missing Bath & Body Works gift card yesterday! I'll be dropping by there today for sure!